Valentines Day

I wasn't planning to write about Valentines day this year. In fact, I haven't been on here much this week at all. I am not sure if that is because I don't feel that there is much going on to talk about, or if it is because I am feeling emotions so deep that I am not sure yet how to put them into words. They are thoughts that even if I did have the words, I might not have the courage to publish right now. So, I will wait on them until it feels right to share.

Even though I wasn't planning on it, I felt the need to sit down and write tonight. Valentines Day was special for me this year. It wasn't because of anything huge, romantic, or fancy that I felt the need to share with the world. (Although, Dan did surprise me with something so thought out and sweet that I will remember forever.) That isn't what it was about for me. That isn't what I wanted to share or even what I cared about most.

It was the simple sweet moments that made today special. The real life moments. It was the way Dan reminded me of his steady love this morning. I had been trying to decide what to wear, and was having one of those tear everything out of the closet mornings. I came to the breakfast table in his fleece, no make up, and had complete bedhead. He looked at me, smiled, and then said "How did I get you? You are so beautiful." I was reminded that I am enough for him without all of those things, and that he loves me more than I could ever deserve.

It was how excited Logan was to really start understanding another holiday. When he came downstairs this morning there were a couple little Valentine related things waiting for him. One of them was a heart shaped box with three chocolates inside. He ate two of them, and then with what seemed like all of the restraint he could muster, he closed the box and said, "I will save the last one for Saturday." After a few seconds Dan said, "It is Saturday bud." He grabbed the box again said "Oh Okay!" in the most excited tone, and finished off the last piece.

So that was Valentines Day for us. Just another day, but a day that I grew and changed. A day that I realized what is actually important. A day that I will go to bed thanking God for all of the love, that I am so very undeserving of. I hope you all had a wonderful day with the people that you love most!