my week.

It's been one of those weeks...


A week when I just can't seem to get ahead.

When it feels like I am failing at everything I try to do.

When the to do list goes almost untouched but 100 more things are added to it.

When I wish I had even taken the time to make a to do list instead of twenty scattered post it notes and a few scribbles in my planner. Then I would know that at least if I didn't get anything done it would all be written down in one place.

When that crazy fear that I am not a good enough mom because I gave my son marshmallows, chocolate chips, and pizza all in one day sneaks up on me.

When he goes to bed with dirt under his finger nails because he was so exhausted at bedtime that the thought of dealing with the meltdown that would ensue if I tried to add a bath to the day was just too much.

When Dan and I are still sleeping on a top sheet because I haven't put the fitted one that I washed a few days ago back on the bed.

When the car keys go missing and we search everywhere... to no avail.

When I am up too late trying to get stuff done and still feel like I let everyone else around me down.

When it seems that I finally have all of the dishes done and turn around to a new sink full of dishes.

When I feel like the world around me keeps spinning at a fast pace but I can't seem to break out of slow motion.

When I wonder how moms with more children do it every day, and what it will be like when I attempt to tackle that job someday too.

When I sit down to do a blog post because one of the only things keeping me sane is the thought that I can vent on here and some mom, out there somewhere, will completely understand. The freedom to write what I am feeling even though I don't see how it could possibly become one of those "here is the silver lining" posts. Then, it happens.... and the sound of my little boy saying "ove ou" (love you) for the first time today flashes back. Suddenly, I have found the silver lining that I couldn't see clearly before, because that love is what really matters.

I can't seem to catch up with life lately but I guess that is just another part of the ride....